Hambal nya: "Basta okay ka lang da ha? Simba ka gd kun may time ka."
Yes, makasimba ko pero
I. WILL. NEVER. BE. OKAY.
NOT ANYMORE.
NOT EVER IN THIS LIFETIME.. the void you left will never be filled. Months have passed and yet I can't seem to put things the way they should be. What i should feel; how I should grieve. Indi ko kabalo. I'm stuck in a limbo of denial and of truth. I have been misplacing my emotions. I thought doing crazy things could ease the pain. I have been a walking sledgehammer... Feigning unperturbed most days. I still go to work like everything is fine, because I think making myself occupied will shy me away from pain.
Could my own passing be the answer? I have thought about it many times. Even praying to not even wake up just to let all these go away.
Waking up is now hard labor; not being able to -- will definitely be a favor.
I left, but will return. You left and will never come back.
Maybe in the another lifetime. :( kun pwede lang.
I will never be the same. Everything is useless now. Para que es esta vidaaa?!
NO one will ever understand this pain, guilt, regret and anger altogether.
Sakit sakit na gid. 💔 i can't contain these emotions anymore. I tried drowning them as I revelled in sorrow, yet the bastards learned how to swim. Daw ka depota lang.
It's unfair that your wings were ready but my heart wasn't... it isn't, it will never be. If this is not the greatest pain, then what is? There's no moving on. T.T i'm Forever bereaved.
I am just breathing but I died with you, Nay. 😢
